Today, my family and I went bowling. It was only the second time in my life that I have bowled. The first time, I was about 10 years old. Today – 37 years later, I tried again. I will gladly admit I was pretty miserable at it, but it was a fun experience anyway. I wish I could have permanently traded in my tired old summer flip-flops for those cute little bowling shoes. (Ok, so they are no Jimmy Choos, but I thought they had a certain vintage charm.) That would have really made my day, but alas…they wanted them back.
Here’s the truth about bowling and me. I could have gone any number of times over the years. My husband has taken the kids repeatedly as an outing, but I always begged off. Why? Well, let’s just say, I am not a petite woman and bowling does nothing for my self-image. The kids would ask me to go, but I would always find an excuse not to. Pretty soon they got the message that mom was not willing to risk it, and they stopped asking. They were always sweet about it and never made me feel bad, but I did feel bad. I felt bad because I knew I was hiding – holding back and protecting myself from personal embarrassment. I wanted to go and have fun with them, but I wanted my own comfort more.
You should know this about my family. They love me just the way I am. I always feel loved and accepted by them, but I allow my own self-conscious obsession to keep me from enjoying certain things with them – and I have done this for years. So why am I telling you this, and why was today different? I’ll tell you.
As I have started chasing hard after goodness it has got me thinking. How can it be goodness for me to deny my kids, just to keep myself cocooned from possible embarrassment? And, am I really living – being true to me and enjoying my life?
Well, today I said “Enough! I am going to get over myself, go enjoy my family, and get on with my life.” I am taking steps to change my body and improve my health, but those steps have not transformed me yet. Even though I don’t look any different, I decided I needed to start acting like the healthy, active, fun-loving, courageous person I want to be, instead of the person I have settled for. I may never be the Jimmy Choo wearing super model type, but I can sport a pair of bowling shoes and crash some pins for goodness sake.
My score today was not much higher than my age, but my heart was happy. We had a good time, and I enjoyed my family so much. I faced my fear and didn’t die! I must confess my back is a little sore, but I’m pretty sure I’ll live. I want you to know that it was goodness that gave me the courage to go. Goodness cheered me on, and goodness let me embrace the beauty and life that today held. Goodness helped me get over myself and get on with it. What can goodness do for you?
“Goodness gives you the courage to face your fears and get over yourself, for the sake of those you love.”
A “Good” Idea:
Think of one thing that you have been hiding from, avoiding, or putting off that would benefit your family or the people you love. Summon your courage and do it for Goodness’ sake! When you accomplish your goal, let us hear about it with a short post in the comment box. Good Luck!!